Wow so much to share not sure where to start well I guess with the really great news that I got a job offer this week!! Haven't signed the paperwork yet but it's working for a jewlery designer being her in-house photographer and prodcution artist doing her catalog, print ads and hopefully some website maintencace. I will be replacing a women who has worked there for five years and she is going to be training me on the job till march 1st twice a week. Seems easy enought and when I go full time I will get benefits and start making 42 a yr down from the 50 a yr I was making last year but hey can't be picky in this economy that's for sure. This job def allows me a lot of flexability creativley and to be able to work part time from home too!! Also alots me some freedom in that I can move and do other things like another big trip this year possibly Ireland again or maybe Costa Rica in the fall :) I'm very happy and it was so easy a little too easy if you ask me hahaha!
So I will be visiting Virginia in a few weeks feb7th-14th I know my dad is excited and I really am too to see everyone and just hang especially to see Laura I didn't get to see her on my September trip cause she was working in Canada it's been almost a year since I've seen her and that was only for one night cause she was working and I had my hands full with everything.
I can't believe it's been almost two years on the 30th since I started this journal a lot has been private hahaha! but really I started this journal to see how my life would be without Alex and to see my journey on developing myself my emotions my life and I got to say I'm pretty fucking happy!! I have never been this confident and self assured each experience I've had since then has just made me that much stronger and after six years of dating him I can say I'm truly happy for him in whatever he is doing and wish him well but it was the best decision to leave him and fingure out who I am and what I wan and to� reate my own life even if I don't know where it is going to lead me. Isn't that the fun of it all??
Off to see Avatar and eat korean food woot woot!! happy holiday :)
"It is a paradoxical but profoundly true and important principle of life that the most likely way to reach a goal is to be aiming not at that goal itself but at some more ambitious goal beyond it." - Arnold Toynbee
It's like me and basketball.. if I shoot for the basket, I miss but if I shoot father, into a harder goal, the ball falls into the basket. I guess the moral is you should always shoot a little farther.
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�� � �I'm new to this but am willing to give it a try. Hopefully, keeping a journal will help my mind from continously running && jumping from one thing to the next. I'm 19 about to turn 20 in Feb. I have been married for a little over a year to a wonderful man. I have beautiful daughter that is 5 months old. I don't know what I would do without them in my life.�
�� � �As of my life right now....... Its difficult like it is for most people these days. Theres no jobs and money is tight and you try to stay sane from all the stress your under. I dropped out of school when I was 16 and now I'm finally trying to go back and finish. I'm finding that its alot harder than it sounds. I'm so rusty; its really frustrating.�
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I Want to DIE
I want to die
Everything is going wrong for me.
My mom drinks
my dad drinks
My brother hates me
My little brother left
I hate to be alone
thats why I say this
I just want to die
Because I see no point In living.
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vampiricakatt 29, Female, Minnesota, USA - 102 entries